Exam over . But the tension ..
1st good news about today is
EXAMS ARE -offically- OVER !
=D
1st bad news is
i prepared to FAIL EVERYTHING !
=x
2nd good news is
*pause*
no more actually
2nd bad news is
....
3rd bad news is
...
so on
and
so fourth
i duno why people around me are so hard to be angry
but for me
is like one single bit of shit thrown to me
i will like fuck up and like fuck up
i duno what the fuck im ranting
but i seriously is like
totally no mood to do anything to what-so-ever shits
to think that something is coming
people say freedom is here as sa1 is over
i say my freedom is going to be the end
i seriously very confused
i hate making desions
i seriously dun like
it makes my whole mind turn topsy turvy
and i feel so emo and fuck up about it
if i were to leave once and for all
i can sense the concequences
but if i stay on
seriously i would not put my heart and soul
so whats the fucking point ?
i been so like moody these days that
for no random reason i hit people
i know they inside keep cursing me
like im a shit around them or what
but i seriously cannot take it
i keep saying i very bored i very bored
acutally right inside
i seriously very confused
i hit people just to let out abit
but that abit is seriously not enough for me
i cant find a punching bag
i duno where to punch or shout
i duno who could i pour all my feelings
i seriously is like standing right at the end of the cliff
anytime anywhere to break down and die
i mean seriously do i have a friend around me
i cant find one
people say that true friends will be at your side when we are at the lowest point in life
where you can trust them
and pour all your weal and woes to them
i say thats bullshit
if like that means i no friends lorhs ?
maybe that it
i do NOT have friends
im just a fucking loner sitting right beside a fucking bitch
that keep nag nag nag all day long
and adding salt on my wound to make my day worst
whats the fucking point of living
i seriously duno
i at my wits end
i duno what to do
my interst is lost
gone forever
im aimless
i do not have a power to move on
i guess im stuck at the reality
where the mind around me is so black that
i cant see anything
i cant feel anything
where i squat there for the rest of my life .
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