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hais its 2 more wk to syf and even less n ?
nobody seems to give a damn bout it
exxept for the seniors
wtf u all wan
cmon work hard la !
it jus 2 more patathic wks man still can complain
i got nth to say man .
argh i duno wad to say
fuck suppose to write 2day wad happen
but tat few minutes spoils my whole day
fuck fuck fuck
i been reciving negative since young
and none positive
but why tis stupid ass thing kip botherin mi
oh fuck how how how i dun even wtf is happening inside me
so confused random bad thing kip flashing through my mind
how i wish theres a shop where to sell new brain
or brainwash so cool man
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anyway 2day went to sentosa wif
SHEAP
yar
S - sexy - teruna
H - hot - sammy
E - erotic - yuheng
A - austistic - ME
P - prostitute - farah
lols
ya so random ;D
have alot fun wif strangers
n among us
hees
first time play volleyball
n
beach soccer
leg pain
i hate salt around my body irriating
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back after a few minutes after my rants
ok haha
i reali hate myself for being so dumb
wanted to rants more actually
the the second before i wanted to type the first letter
a feeling told me not to
so i stop
but common sense told me after i type finish the letter 'p'
so i continue
WHY WHY WHY !
theres so much things going thru in my - duno how big size - heart brain or wadeva shit
i seriously theres too much things har ?
and my stupid calander is at some month tat showed the old national stadium
brings back bad n old memories huh ?
too bad
it makes me more stress
makes me more guilty
that i cant teach
im not a good teacher
im not a good senior
im not a good member
im not a good trumpeter
im not a good student
im not a good brother
and lastly
im not a good human
im just a junk
im just a worthless shit
im just something not even worth to bee look at
bother at
just something tat should be thrown away
far far away
where no ppl know
who am i
what am i
what is the purpose is living ?
it just passed through my mind
what ?
i also duno
im so dumb
so idiot
i sux seriously
i wan to emo
i wan to die
i wan to cut
i wan to break the promise that i made
i duno what to do i duno whats going around my mind
i duno whats going to happen to me
i duno how to handle the problem
i duno who to believe
i duno who to trust
i duno who to tell
i duno who to confront
i duno where to shout all my problem
i just wan a place to relax
i just wan to win
i just wan to maintain the GWH
i just wan to win the best display band
i just wan to run away from all the problem
n die off in memories
or even faded memories .
i wan to give up
can i ?
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actually duno wad to write hahas ...
casue zak say so , so i write
write write write
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hahas bullshit im bored ;D
lazy update pic wan see come to mi for my fone
i got zak nad n hasanah ugly pic ;DD !
so is khaifang amirah n diana !
hehe all in my com
yea thats all im bored chiongin hmwk
i swear im not teaching maths if i were to be a teacher !
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