Sunday, September 18, 2011 '

everything is okay now. i think?

Saturday, September 17, 2011 '

The armor protecting me

Yes.

This post is all about my life till now.

I met Jeremiah and Daryl.

Cool people.

But i changed.

Initially i always "wore" a "protective armor" around me.

To prevent people from invading my life.

Only reaching the fake smile of me. Nothing else.

It was Daryl who started stripping it off.

I loved him. Alot.

The first person i can truly say i really love him.

At first he loved me too? i guess

then when i started to really open up, which i did not do to anyone for the past 17 years of my life.

HE LEFT. just like that. *POOF* gone.

The feeling is like half naked on the street, everybody staring at you.

One word to describe. Horrible.

So horrible that i cannot stand it. i accidentally spill out the secret to my class.

Even to those i didnt want them to know about it.

Here comes Jeremiah.

I really thought we could be best friend forever. Literally.

After getting dump, he was always there.

Is like, im still half naked on the street, but he is there to protect me.

I feel so safe.

And so guillibly i also open up to him.

Until today, i swear it was one of my down-est days in my life.

He knew i needed someone to accompany me. He knew.

Although it may seemed small and immaculate to him, its a huge blow to me.

Its not that i never been though huge blows before, but i had the armor.

Which now i dont.

He left. For a date which he never even talk to in real life.

Sitting alone at coffee be an for 3 hours.

I was hoping/praying whatever, either of them to come.

None came.

Im all alone again. "Naked".

After stripping off the armor that is protecting me.

You all left.

At one moment im glad that none of you came.

Casue i can predict my downfall.

At another moment i felt so devastated

It made me realised all people are fair-weathered friends.

True friend? Impossible.

I decided.

No more depending on people anymore.

Im going to build up my armor again.

Stronger than ever.

No one can intrude it.

Whats the point when i have alot of "friends" but sad

than alone yet happy ?

I miss the old days. Alone yet happy.

Although i admit the happiest days were hanging out with jeremiah and daryl.

But it was short lived.

Lets pray i can rebuild my armor as soon as possible.

Tuesday, March 15, 2011 '

I feel like im a genius !

LOL !

i read my past post.

i said that most prob i wouldnt visit any people from sec sch . when i grad .

AND I WAS RIGHT !

HAHA ! crazy bitch .

If Jin Hao were to ever came here. I would like to thank him for buying me beer yesterday LOL

I feel so random . this is a good way to kill time (:

P.S: why he LOL me then never say anything . zzz make me so happy only casue got people talk to me LOL !

Sunday, March 13, 2011 '

So I'm back once agan bloggng with my itouch

As what my title said. This is so fun lol !

What I prefer is actually to be chased by people, buy why am I so dumb to chase people and hurt myself time and time again ?

I feel so fucking retarded. It's all my one sided wishful thinking .

Sunday, March 06, 2011 '

After two years

So after two years of non-blogging. I finally came back.

2 years back it was when i was sec 4 ?

So many thing changed. This and that.

Changing jobs. Schools. New friends...

Even my lousy memory cant even everything. Tsk

At least i got a new goal towards the near future :D

Will i ever succeed ?

It seems so blury and far-fetched.

Luckly no one come to my blog anymore HAHA i can post anything i want (\/)

Wednesday, March 18, 2009 '

Kpop

If anybody is slow enough or like super dumb .

im actually into KPOP .
Or Korean Pop .
Or to simplify it further Korean Songs Etc .

Im just bored so yep :D

Sunday, March 08, 2009 '

Witch Yoo Hee

People that see this post right now ..

GO FUCKING WATCH THIS SERIES !

Link : http://www.mysoju.com/witch-yoo-hee/

Wednesday, February 25, 2009 '

I crave to study , Nothing but studying

Thats a lie .

But its my one sided wish hoping that some miracle may happen .
Maybe when singapore have wishing stars pass by first .

Currently , in the exam mood .
However knowing that my english hopeless since i wrote out-of-point .
All the motivation that i got is gone .

Faggs .

BUT ! i shall presevere .

My physic is in a mess and i do not even know whether i can do my amaths since i haven touched it since last week .

Gawd . i seems so hopeless .

Quote of the month :
I crave to study , Nothing but studying

Monday, February 16, 2009 '

10 reason im still using a blog

As the title says so ...

1. I love typing on my keyboard .
2. Nobody visit it . I can type what i like .
3. Can ponder over stupid stuffs to type .
4. I love my blogskin .
5. No need to update regularly .
6. Love the word blog .
7. Can laugh at myself next time when looking at previous posts .
8. Can make and excuse to use computer .
9. Too lazy to change .
10. I still love blogging .

Ok im bored . My whole body is damn pain .
Doing Amaths now . BYE .

P.S / Chan Kai Mun suddenly say i got potential in physic :D

Wednesday, February 04, 2009 '

Despise

i

REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY

despise

SOME

[ not all ]

INDANS